It’s time for a confess sesh…
-I had no idea I would have zero control over my bladder the first few weeks after delivery. I may or may have not peed my pants the first night home (ok, I did). I searched the internet that next day looking for answers because I was thinking I would have to wear depends the rest of my life. Thankfully all the answers said I would gain more control during my recovery period. I’m so happy to say, the advice was correct.
-The first two months of new mommyhood is hard. And I mean like really hard. Not only do you have no idea what to do with this little miracle, you do not know your child yet and it is hard to respond to their needs, you are trying to recover from childbirth, you are accommodating visitors, living life with no schedule, dealing with unpredictability (will this last rocking session put her to sleep or will I be doing this for two more hours?!), PLUS you are working through hormones and feelings towards your whole new life. Whew, it is a lot!
-I’m excited to get back to work. I have about a week left, eek! There were multiple times during my maternity leave that when Derek was leaving for work, I wished it was me. However, now that my time is about to be done, I’m getting a little nervous to leave my bundle of joy with somebody else all day…even Derek. It is just nobody knows Charlie as well as I do. Plus, a selfish part of me doesn’t want her to love somebody as much as she loves and depends on me. But, I know she will adjust, will always love me because I’m her mom, and lastly, it will be good for her to hang out with other people besides me and her dad.
-It is the absolute truth when people say that it is love at first sight with your child. I was so incredibly emotional when I delivered Charlotte and they placed her on my chest. I knew at that moment I was in love. After spending almost three months with her, I have to say, I’m absolutely obsessed with my child.
-It is also true when people say you will think your child is the most beautiful child in the world. I tell Charlie how beautiful she is about 1,304 times a day. Seriously!
-I didn’t feel a “connection” to Charlie while I was pregnant. Don’t get me wrong, I felt so blessed and couldn’t wait to have her. However, it was hard for me to think of her as a person, so I didn’t think of her as a little girl yet…my little girl. As I mentioned, that changed the second she was welcomed into the world.
-My permanent marks from pregnancy didn’t appear until after I delivered…lucky me! I don’t know if I didn’t notice it before, but after the weight came off, I now can see stretch marks on my butt (lovely). Also, something else I didn’t notice while pregnant, I have a linea nigra that looks like it is here to stay. It wasn’t noticeable/present while my belly was huge, but now, I have a nice line going down my stomach. Lastly, my belly button is not the same. It is bigger and deeper. Everything else I’ll be able to get back to normal; I just need to find the motivation to start working out!
-I’ve gained much more patience since Charlie has been born. Derek on the other hand, he has less lol. I think it comes with the mommy territory!
-After going through a pregnancy, I’m in absolute awe of the human body. The changes the body endures through pregnancy and then going through labor is amazing. Plus, seeing the development in a baby is crazy. It is insane in what the body can naturally do!